I go through these times when I really want to blog…but I don’t. I get this idea in my head…and then wait a couple of days before deciding to blog about it. When I start to write, I decide that it’s no longer relevant and give up on it.
Then I find that it’s over a month since my last post and Nicole tells me I need to blog more and I feel bad.
I’d like to give reasons as to why, but I really don’t have any. I can blog from my iPhone, so there are no valid reasons other than laziness and lack of confidence in my posts. I question whether anyone really reads my blog, but I shouldn’t. I know that there are several people who read it (Hi Janie and Henry), so that shouldn’t be a factor.
Satan does a masterful job at telling me that no one cares. And I believe him. I know better than that, but I still fall for it. And I’m sick of it.
God has told me repeatedly that He loves me. And I still question Him. Because Satan causes me to doubt.
On Sunday I gave a sermon on how God will never reject me, and I’m glad because that it something I struggle with. I always want to be good enough for God, but that can never happen, because no one can ever be good enough. And yet, He still wants me. He won’t ever reject me or give up on me. He’ll take me just as I am.
I need to be reminded of that constantly. And I am glad that He is persistent, because I am not. I am a broken creature who gets lazy and questions things.
He never fails.
Zephaniah 3:17 (NIV)
The LORD your God is with you,
he is mighty to save.
He will take great delight in you,
he will quiet you with his love,
he will rejoice over you with singing."
“He is jealous for me, loves like a hurricane and I am a tree, bending beneath the weight of His mercy.” Eddie Kirkland, “How He Loves”
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